30

still can't shake the fact

that it's all pretty dream-like,

near utopian

29

good dreams waking up

bike chain grease on hands post class

perfect loaf of bread

28

Mental Health Research

I'm in the study for funds

Draw pictures, take tests

27

ART talk at lacma

big colorful smooth thoughtful

Good way to spend night

26

family dinner

two and a half hours

in car; completely worth it 

25

Quiet exploring

Hours of reading in new space

with coffee and tea

24

Success! My new job:

Part time baker/caterer.

This is amazing.

23

Again, up too late

since talk made yesterday's date

bleed into today.

22

I need tortillas

Freshly made in Echo Park

For a meal I'll cook

21

class makes my head hurt

but in a good way that means

can't do much after

20

interview tonight

I smile at the thought of me

as part-time baker

19

Grown into myself

a little bit more each day.

And really happy.

18

loving canada

Labatt, Canadian Mist

at a cold fish fry

17

too early to tell.

but I'm happy to be here,

it's so different.

16

Hollywood does not

look like I imagined it

on my bike ride here

15

I said to old friend

"It's like slow motion dream world,

with no one I know."

14

went for a free couch

smelled of cats, I'm a sucker.

cat couch in my car

13

no-sleep sleep schedule

had a monster to wake up

craaaaashing is certain

12

ridiculous now

and was ridiculous then

wake with "too much!" laughs

11

way too dark to see

how strange all these people are

(not enough dancing)

10

same, like the old dreams 

that got me down, made it hard

to wake myself up

9

blah blah blah blah blah

same same same same same same same

(I'm good, just not wowed)

8

While browsing craigslist

I forgot how old I am

Counted on fingers

7

trade school for bad job

trade free new films for dancing

trade cousins for friends

6

Dear Red Bicycle,

I wish your brakes worked better,

Didn't squeak so loud.

5

top down, small white car

drive PCH, 4-oh-5

just living the dream

4

Carnival in Orange

The family wins for me

Two baby goldfish

3

post-housewarming thoughts:

studio could fit double,

table's dance-sturdy 

2

LA keeps trying

to win my heart and I think

it's starting to work

1

backpack of fresh food

afternoon of cooking up

meals for coming week