31

Admit unhappy.

Then think, "What of it, really?

Find something to do."

30

post-vacation stares

something in my body ticks

then non-triggered tears

29

Success! Rain renews.

And so do Seattle days.

Still scared, but refreshed.

28

Regain sanity:

comfort spots, rain stomping, and

Republican steps.

27

Big Time beer drinking

since face to face beats phone calls

I'm so glad she's here

26

I'm stupid happy

Flying into my city

Yeah, still has my heart

25

Thought it was early.

But no, a group's up right now,

playing badminton.

24

Today was last time

at physical therapy.

They're proud of my win.

23

clothes to the tailor

clothes to the dry cleaners and

clothes to the washer

22

Taught world history

to tenth graders for the day

as guest lecturer.

21

On bikes we crashed course.

Middle of night marathon.

Ladies geared? Won it.

20

More asleep than not.

Which is expected, I think,

after weeks like this.

19

Long bike, no water,

followed by some IPAs,

leads me here again.

18

I've got the sad face

but I've gotten really good

at just faking it.

17

DASHDOTDOTDOT DOT

DASHDOTDASHDASH DASHDASHDASH

DASHDOT DASHDOTDOT

16

Two quick earthquake shakes.

Did it happen? I'm awake.

But it could be fake.

15

Uninsurable.

Unless I pay six hundred.

Hope there's no falls, pains.

14

Not to sound just like

Morrissey, but Every

Day Is Like Sunday

13

Seems all I say here:

Food is good, school is near done,

future is scary.

12

Coast views: forty miles

Quick, calm pedal home: twelve miles

School work: no miles moved

11

Recently relearned

How perfect cereal is

Eat box upon box

10

Go to bed at five

The dishes stacked up dirty

Floor covered by clothes

9

How does it add up?

One dollar is twenty cans.

They do this all day.

8

MELODRAMATIC?

whine, OBVIOUSLY. sigh, DUH.

CALM, WHICH MEANS A STORM.

7

Setting: Barnsdall Park.
Laying face up in wet grass.
Clouds pass, rain drops, sun.

6

still get halfway thoughts

of what could/might happen next

nothing fully formed

5

I turned the brain off

And took the body on a

Forty mile bike ride.

4

My stress manifests

silently until reaching

it's upper limit.

3

They think it's funny.
(Fine to say 'cause we're all white.)
I promise, it's not.

2

I tried to think of
how they're dealing with her death,
but I can't do it.

1

Mixed feelings and guts.
This silly carved out feeling
with caved in brain freeze.