30

Just like that, switch flipped.
Don't want to seem weak, truly.
But we're a good pair.

29

I'm a recorder.
Money Miles Music Hours Dates
Times Projects Words Lists

28

It's over despite
Knowing the relationship
Has not run its course

27

Asking my questions
Varying responses that
Don't go anywhere

26

Not even full day
And we return to city
He seems indifferent

25

Another work day
Then we escape to desert
Won't save us this time

24

Pit in my stomach
I am nervous when I see him
Still feels like our home

23

snores keep me awake
but it's not you who's snoring
I'm not in our bed

22

Day of good people
New friends alternate with old
Don't have to be scared

21

I find friend, whisper
my secrets, they become real.
Repeat. Say out loud.

20

Too soon and too sad
It's hard to honor the space
Both try to make good

19

He feels too settled
I like to think that could change
It might take awhile

18

Auto-pilot on.
Get me through the next few weeks.
Monotony helps.

17

eating sardines in
the rain outside a house that
is not where i live

27

It strikes me today

I am meant to be alive

Energy surges.

26

My mind feeling blank.

I'm restless and see no end.

Let's run off juntos.

10

huge to do list done

so we put blankets in van

head out to J.T.

25

Got to get over

That he left, because he's back

Choosing to be here

24

Defendant speaks through

Two interpreters to say

"I did it, Regret."

23

Been taking lunch break

to Spring For Coffee with Gabe

Jury duty brews.

22

...and week two begins

testimony continues

take notes, can't keep still

21

See, I have money

but it can be hard to spend

Used to not-having

20

when I wake early

no response to my good-byes

just harumph, harumph

19

Early morning dreams

Wine box "Wouldn't it be nice"

sitting in my mind.

18

The things of note:

he got job, Poweraxe show,

rain made our shoes soaked.

17

In the jury box

I don't form opinion,

keep an open mind

16

worry about work

they'll have to live without me.

Juror 1 for trial

15

Jury Duty Day

mostly waiting, hear others

day ends with sitting.

14

Perma-grin. In awe.

But I have a valentine.

Stoned, and music plays.

13

Drink Hot Lemonade

And smile as our regulars

Drink coffee, talk, live.

12

awake in cold loft

above Vlad the Retailer

slink out, open shop

11

Speed back, plus errands

So rock band can use cafe

as their dressing room

10

bat his choice around

question the worth, the response

save it for never

9

decide to return

to the place our souls settle

we don't question it

8

Familiar, yes

But not at all the same as

Can't contain smile though

7

Midnight rendezvous

Leads us to Joshua Tree

+ new beginnings.

6

Another rough day

I try to make my own way

Unsure of future

5

Back to simple fact

I make friends with anyone

So I'm not alone

4

planning, or pounding,

on this not-my typewriter

because i need to

3

pledge drive - answer phones

it's early but i wasn't

sleeping anyway

2

she helps me fold clothes

and rework my furniture

accept how things are

1

breath through smokes, count down.

I'll call it his vacation.

left with kiss, and cat.

31

out of gas two ways

figurative and literal

walked to gas station

30

'65 Beetle

We look rock and roll and cruise

I play the third wheel

29

Soul seeps out my toes

Faster than I expected

Seems final, not brief

28

It spill out, quick gush

(after word. word after word.)

my clenched teeth; brace self.

27

the road fades away.

can't remember exactly

my ears full of tears.

27

Discovered heartbreak

Out in desert with no choice

But follow it home

26

Scramble rocks, trust, lives

Taking risks and reaching peak

Get stuck on way out

25

focus on deep breaths

remember how i thrived on

change for all my years