31

Sometimes 2 couples
and a weekend to get that
we didn't have it.

30

Tries to persuade me
By singing all the words right
So I'll unlock gates

29

Eating as a house
Put together new normal
Jump in my new skin

28

Run into Laura
on the street, explain that I
struggle to reach out

27

Sadness still seeping.
Play is Molly sweating or
crying? Answer is both.

26

work could be heavy
but colleague and I focus
on the positive

25

Dumpsters full of books
We go in searching for gems
Under the streetlamps

24

Feel so powerful
As he talks of my beauty
And I turn him down

23

Hours on city streets

Learning a new place, clear mind
Feel at ease, open

22

Dig deep to climb up
Wear out legs and mind chatter
Sweat leaves body cold

21

Name over airport
loudspeaker - left travel book
on the airplane seat.

20

Up early, back to
PT to sort out body
keep trying to fix

19

House singing Jolene,
Starfish and Coffee, and then
Don't Think Twice. Swept up.

18

Read: "Outside the wind
has its own permanent gig.
And was still blowing."

17

Clean out these closets

For new housemates in a room

In this now-my-house.

16

Nights are the hardest
What put the wind in his sails
Took it out of mine.

15

My words mostly light
Doing what I want, and when
Heart still so heavy

14

May have hit progress
I say out loud on walk home
"What do I want?" Think.

13

her footsteps up stairs
into the house, I porch sit
wait til she appears

12

Self-esteem plummets
(And it was already down)
How do I shake off?

11

continue working
stashing my cash for the day
a plan emerges

10

Nothing beats walking
Down hill in the rain to see
Yenni and Parker

9

On edge in these streets
But safe with Drew, who gets it.
(Feel dumb to feel this.)

8

Disgust registers
When I think of his face now
Which means something, right?

7

Group kitchen stretching
We're on the floor on our backs
Pushing out the pain

6

Body feeling bad
On top of brain on backwards
Where it's all my fault

5

All the homes are full
Keep calling though, to find one
on my desired blocks.

4

Customer asks me
why I haven't been to Jay's
(Don't tell her I'm scared.)

3

Tired legs from dancing
Know I should repeat it soon
Sweat out my bad feels

2

I hop in the car.
She offers me red lipstick.
I say yes. We dance.

1

Sit with now-my cats
Fireworks, voices drifting in
Tiled blue-green bathroom