31

Forget that I'll be
Tired and try to give a full
Day to work, but can't

30

Body's failing me
Hurts and I'm mad, not at pain -
At imposed limits

29

Try to keep mind clear
I drive around for coffees
Get to work with buds

28

Pass her a coffee
And hop in her car for a
Quick talk while it rains

27

Grumpy, I know why
And I push through even though
My way is better

26

Sometimes the day goes
I'm not sure how minutes passed
But now house is full

25

Inspiration struck
Comes in waves to remind me
Gives strength to process

24

Tears stream down my face
Article I've read before
And will read again

23

Early morning hike
Close day watching Moonlight and
Being deeply moved

22

A painful massage

Followed with some fancy beer

Then art and curb sit

21

Getting to all things
Even add "watch a movie"
To my to do list

20

Succinctly repeat
Things I know about myself
To reinforce them

19

So much time to think
Which is my luxury as
Feelings float, emerge

18

"I'm afraid," I think
And it's true, I am, but the
Future is out there

17

Clean the house with her
Then to the spa to get these
Feelings to sink in

16

Feeling heavy and
Say out loud I need to think
Somewhere else, and soon

15

bike to LACMA and
let my eyes take in some art
while Jenna's in town

14

Let go of brain sense
making logic and hop in
that version of self

13

News of surgery
settling and feeling like a
personal failure

12

I like watching a
Creative process occur
Cements future work

11

Valuing talking
Not that I wasn't, but my
Own voice had trailed off

10

Office working but
It sort of gives me headache
'Cause no real windows

9

I want to eavesdrop
On every person's words
I passed on the street

8

Commit to day's work
But my full mind's not in it
Make the thing, move on

7

There are books I read
That I loved then, wouldn't now
I'll hold onto them

6

Hear screaming from street
Recognize type of anger
Distant from me now

5

What shifts would I have
to make to accommodate
a relationship?

4

My world is shrinking,
Socially, and I like it.
May be a hermit.

3

Quick chill starts inside
Reverberates to my skin
Dark days, not mine, world's.

2

Mark one year passing
Meal with Yenni, Parker, Kyle
LA family

1

Put in appearance
With community that gave me
Me LA I know