30

rain remnants, blue sky,
and lingering shadow of
clouds fused to my blues

29

Climbed Mt. Si and proved
I'm stronger now than I was
(Why did I need proof?)

28

Legs need rest but I

add work searching for quiet

spot with no hikers.

27

Car pulls over, she

says, "I think that's quite special!"

to companion.

26

skip in my step's from
guessing roads, deer, chasing light,
having plans be foiled

25

First easy sunrise.
Get to feel the colors bloom.
Thirty-five days in.

24

I still want to read
Until the light disappears
As I did when young

23

on a route that is
finding the brain space to sense
what I might need now

22

And then when you stop
Made it to stillness / Time slows
And it is enough

21

on a search for still
can't get alone for enough
feels appropriate

20

(At the core of it)
My observations can give
Strangers sense of ease

19

Will I remember
I saw no shooting stars or
Just that there were stars

18

A detour through Bend.
And we've all cried shitty tears.
My arms stretch, contain.

17

Think "I'll be afraid
another day" and mean it.

(The fear's unspoken.)

16

Work I agreed to
There are still things I must do
Outside feeling blue

15

At one point, wind whipped
The sound of war, destruction
Just noises earth makes

14

Feel trapped; trap myself.
How often do I limit?
Place parameters?

13

wet forest holds us
cedar tubs filled, but it's the
company I keep

12

We have gravity,

you explained and I felt it

bind my life to yours.

11

Rings of Saturn plays

Re-reading The Emigrants

Rain & tears, equal

10

feel "Love is not a
symptom of time / Time is just
a symptom of love"

9

Reclining on rocks,
Or, likely I'll remember
This day forever

8

I turn up the charm
Refrain from speaking the roots
Of my emotions

7

Mostly listening
But with Bodie, I process
Pup has grounded me

6

Signal glitch causes

"Any Man of Mine" to play 

Throughout this phone call

5

both of our lives are
designed for maintenance of 
possibility

4

I trust my methods
even as they present as
thing I couldn't do.

3

Think of ownership

How we take, expect, feel owed,

Believe we deserve

2

I'm part of landscape
Horses notice and approach
Bodie checks on me

1

Horseback on land my
college friend's husband's parent's
have raised their boys on.