30

I point out the tears

Not from pain, though, I assure

From relief? he asks.

29

Postman hoists mail bin
Overhead as strength training
As he walks down street

28

That every so
Often flurry of reaching
Arms stretched for contact

27

As I run, I see
brief sequence of images.
Could-be creator.

26

Cry in corner (twice)

Address 31 in Ford's

If You Have To Go

25

It's just me, this life
I'm the king of this castle
I can change my mind

24

Choose a table of

Older folks but none of them

Say a word to me

23

swimming laps outdoors
take the street lamp light to be
the moon as I breathe

22

Equilibrium
Attained, and I've leveled out
Face my new normal

21

Maybe it's all fine
She says upon reflecting
Sleep like this, for now

20

the first thing I do
today is cry, so that's how
things are for me now

19

She walks up to me
A surprise, to see her here
Lives somewhere else now

18

sit outside for lunch
simple, flip through my notebooks
try to make sense of...

17

He jogs alongside
"I'm tired of being single"
He appears harmless

16

Settle on a meal.

When did I entertain last?

Feed a group some soup?

15

Eat oatmeal most days.
Today, make enough for two.
She's late, so it's lunch.

14

Abandon alarm.
Sleep when tired, wake when rested.
Search for a baseline.

13

Nothing sounds good now.

Enter stores, glance at menus.

What am I missing?

12

I fake it, also

Known as lying, I lie, which

Seemed a social move

11

What if I could see
my reflection in this cup
of coffee? What then?

10

Miss what we look for
So we hike just passed ski lift
For our fish picnic

9

discard productive

for social, which will feed me

in a profound way

8

explaining my brain
attach a silver lining
avoid word "detached"

7

I just keep walking

Grocery stores, restaurants

None of it sounds right

6

There is no normal
Self-care is not perfection
Chant myself to sleep

5

Wear my warmest clothes
Some for the first time, no joke,
In my apartment

4

Settle back in with
My routine, my lists, my planner
Organize way out

3

Feel voice hover on
Saying what I mean. Find it
Easier hours in.

2

I think to call him
And then don't, but then do, and
Then leave bad voicemail

1

sliver of moon and
Venus burst out of night sky
sights I almost hear