31

Visit with some of
My family in Raton
No need to perform

30

I can see mom, dad
As I walk through the train car
Before they see me

29

I need a small day.
Compact, shrink in, feel around
In my space, my bones.

28

Almost fear settling
Avoid spirals, move forward
It's what I can do

27

waterfall hikes and
future imagined heartbreak
then I bribe a dude

26

"That's the kind of thing
you may never recover
from," she tells a child.

25

Tears well, laundry day,
Tanya Tucker, write Lucile.
Where I meant to get.

24

I'm good at this life
Increasingly honest with
Myself, with others

23

Talked to mom and then
drove out to swim alone in
the Sandy River

22

Life's a process not
a substance which we learned from
Wikipedia

21

mourning continues
for friend who was a coward
turned me into pawn

20

slow talks, choosing the
words, diving deep in this mood
restoring myself

19

my words or my eyes
compelled him to give me my
coffee free of charge

18

so much deja vu
in the days since Vancouver
my own life haunts me

17

but now I shift to
deeper sleeps in bigger beds
while a touch lingers

16

Finally ate the
mac and cheese at West 5 and
will repeat that choice.

15

Find a public dock
I slide in in underwear
Resolved, my heart's sure

14

A full day hiking
See his land from way above
The pace of this world

13

We bet a dollar
Moonrise or moonset, both right
Under shooting stars

12

Wearing Nick's sandals
I stand, perch on rock, let time
pass. This is nothing.

11

Follow my heart on
Bus towards Bellevue; Into
a creek under stars.

10

It's a luxury,
this loneliness, as I play
with my friends' children

9

too heavy, might give
impression I haven't filled
days with closest friends

8

On nostalgia tour
I offer. Alone? she asks
and hands me ticket.

7

Trying to turn my
Intuition volume up.
Too quiet to hear.

6

Stitch untetheredness
Back in time, adrift but not
In water, on land

5

The flat feeling, dull
Even here, especially,
Thought it might vanish

4

Reflect with sea legs
in a spot I never knew.
Have I done it wrong?

3

lug suitcase through a
city, try to find myself
abort my plans for wants

2

Eavesdropping confirms:

We are attentive, good and

disappointed/ing

1

Westernesque  music
And an overpriced massage
Alone on prairie.