23

Holds train door open
On purpose, sneaky, pulls out
A Mickey's 40

20

cry at suggestion
of a group session which feels
like a dismissal

19

Pass a poet, then
our paths cross again and I
offer a thank you.

18

Can't sleep or don't sleep
And if there's a difference
Does it matter? No.

17

describe my state as
buoyant pessimism, we
talk of our future

16

I go out walking
Seek out eye contact, searching
These streets now know me

15

Among it all, death

Is not an in theory as I 

Walk by lifeless man

14

A slow morning stretch
in their living room followed
by french press and walk.

13

Offer my thoughts and
Glad to be counted on for
Support, decisions

12

Force myself to not
Be at home in afternoons.
What are my failures?

11

She animates, smiles
Greeting the pup through the gate
Happy to be home

10

Hold on tight all right?
He says to me and I do
Heard Take it easy

9

Few words on drive back

To this city, I scroll to

Tune out politics

8

Cody skips rocks and
I swear one makes it a third
Of the way across

7

Turned back, not close to
Golden Trout Lake but we both
know when to call it.

6

daydream to danger
psych myself out (what's the past
tense of shoot my shot?)

5

Mark says he's looked both
Up and down to me, agrees
That I'm not lazy

4

Decide, don't unpack
Push the to dos and plans to
The next week, again

3

Awake to thunder
Immediately above
Alert, and dreaming.

2

If a memory
Does not calcify, it turns
To color and awe

1

Pine needles burning
(on purpose), the smell takes me
I am comforted